Anxiety

So my anxiety has been super bad today. Sometimes I wish I could just shut my mind off! I didn't sleep well and kept getting up to check on the kids. Sometimes I wish I could just have a single nights sleep like a normal person without my mind trailing off to a million and one dark places.

On a lighter note, I'm pretty much loving this new warmer! Forget-Me-Nots always make me think of my precious angels! So I cannot wait to add this to my collection of things for them!

kerinlee.scentsy.us

Fast Forward

So much has happened! I cannot believe it's March!
Lily ended up coming early on November 26th, the day after we moved!
It's hard to believe she is now 3 months old!
I'm going to try to get back into blogging again. :)

Day 9-16 of 30 Days of Being Thankful

We're had SO much CRAP going on...
that I haven't kept up well with my 30 Days of Being Thankful
BUT I keep telling myself I still need to take time to be thankful.

Day 9 - I'm thankful that our power was turned on.
This is a big part of getting moved into our new house
and something we have been struggling to make happen.
We had to pass a house inspection first which,
contrary to popular belief, is a lot harder than it sounds.
It's never felt so amazing to flip on a light-switch.

Day 10 - Our house was broken into, AGAIN!
I am thankful that we still have our lives
even though they've taken almost everything I have.
They tried kicking in our door and failed...
They tried picking our locks and broke their pick in the door...
So they kicked in our skylight and came in through the bathroom.

Day 11 - I am thankful for this wall post I got on Facebook,
"THANK YOU & Gary from the bottom of my heart....
I checked my p.o. box and had a surprise waiting for me...
I LOVE IT and it will always be a part of me....
I don't know how you two do it....
But I Love You Both Kerin ♥ ♥"
From my friend Kim Harris who I had sent a surprise gift to.
It really made my day that she to receive such a sweet message
showing how thankful she was for something so small.

Day 12 - I am thankful for good praying friends.
I post asking prayers for Gary's job interview on Facebook.
He didn't get the job, but we had an outpouring amount of prayer.
It was amazing to me to have so many people showing support.

Day 13 - I am thankful for good music.
When I'm upset, stressed, depressed, or whatever...
music takes me to another place and helps me through.

Day 14 - I am thankful for kind strangers.
On the 6th a business owner contacted me
and told me that someone "secret"
had contacted her in regards to paying for me to have
a bracelet from her as a Christmas present.
The 14th, she contacted me again to say it had shipped.

Day 15 - I am thankful for good doctors.
When I got home from my 38 week doctor appointment...
I came home to find Mikayla, my 8 yr old stepdaughter,
in bed sobbing unable to move much without assistance.
We rushed her to be seen where she was had a small surgery.
What we thought had been a mosquito bite had turned into
a big huge nasty infected abscess that had to be drained.
After lots of painful shoes to number her up...
they made about a 2 inch long incision in her sweet little hip...
then applied pressure to squeeze out all of the bad stuff.
She sobbed and had to be held down during the entire thing...
BUT luckily she is says it feels much better now.

Day 16 - I am thankful for a nice warm bed.
So most people do not know that Gary and I sleep outside.
We sleep in a small pop-up camper with no power or heat.
This is a temporary thing until we can get moved into our house
and by temporary I mean it's been over a year now.
The inlaws went on a mini vacay to the beach for the weekend...
SO... we get to sleep in the nice warm house in a nice warm bed.
It's amazing how much you take for granted a nice warm bed
until you no longer have one to sleep in each night.

Being There For Eachother

A fellow blogger has this Bible verse above her comment box:

"Therefore encourage one another and build each other up." 

1 Thessalonians 5:11

I'm adding it to my collection of my favorites.
I spend everyday trying to help others who are grieving.

My other favorite is:

"Blessed are those who mourn,
for they shall be comforted"

Matthew 5:4

Day 8 of 30 Days of Being Thankful

Today I'm thankful to be pregnant.

(21 weeks & 5 days ultrasound)

I'm thankful to still be pregnant with baby Lily.

After 5 first trimester losses every day is an accomplishment.

I'm officially 2cm dilated and will be 37 weeks tomorrow.

I'm also thankful each time we hear her strong healthy heartbeat

and each time I feel her kick, hit, and elbow me.

I can't believe my journey with my pregnancy is almost over

and that a new journey with our little rainbow baby is about to begin.

Today I got the hospital bag half packed and by tonight it should be ready.