Anxiety

So my anxiety has been super bad today. Sometimes I wish I could just shut my mind off! I didn't sleep well and kept getting up to check on the kids. Sometimes I wish I could just have a single nights sleep like a normal person without my mind trailing off to a million and one dark places.

On a lighter note, I'm pretty much loving this new warmer! Forget-Me-Nots always make me think of my precious angels! So I cannot wait to add this to my collection of things for them!

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Panic Attack Insomniac

I can't sleep

For in the dark I panic

Fear consuming my soul

And I can't stand it

I sit up and scream

A silent sound nobody hears

Trembling in vain

To the same dream I've had for years

Too much loss

In too short of a life

It stabs at me

Like a dull edged knife

I have thoughts and dreams

About things nobody knows

Like where do we really go

When it's the end of our show

My heart races

At a pace much too fast

I sit here wondering

How much longer can this last

Memories fill my head

So many things I'd like to change

If I could just go back in time

Choosing with things to rearrange

Being grateful for what I have

Never replaces what I've lost

Your death was inescapable

I'm still dealing with its cost

Grief knows no boundaries

In the silence I will weep

As the darkness surrounds me

And everyone else is fast asleep

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(Vigil from October 15th)